Feeling of rejection

After my undergraduate studies, I was moved to post graduate studies in Nottingham,UK. It was first time in my life when I set some goal in my life.

I am not sure how I am going to meet the goal, but who cared?

I was well known to many, as I turned out.

Life used to be all about me. Now I think, I have started hating my life. Not from long time but from last four months.

I don't accept anything much other than to be accepted and loved. Instead, I was always left alone from the group.

I don't know why. I was always put down and ridiculed.

I measured myself dumb and stupid all my life, but I found myself quite intelligent.

I am human, I may do some stupidity now and then. No one is perfect, Its human nature to do stupidity. Doing stupidity doesn't mean that I am stupid.

I have always valued others thoughts and feeling but others never cared to value mine.

I feel anyone would never wants to spend time with me.